Stop triggering my curiosity….
you’re driving me nuts without even knowing.

Couldn’t you have looked my way?

sometimes i rather just kill the feeling before I embarrass myself again. this is getting ridiculous

Back too soon.
I was already happy with myself before even losing a lot of it. So those compliments didn’t really shock me. I don’t know what to feel but could they just stop talking about it. I don’t really care cause I’m always gonna be me no matter what.

Insecurity is something I don’t register with anymore. I’m loving myself more and more everyday.

The nothingness and meaningless feeling. Hmm. I just wanna go back to the people who love me unconditionally. Need to feel again.

It made me happy secretly..

But I don’t think I can hold on to it..
It’s so shallow..
Maybe not now..

They never said you can’t do it. It’s just something in your head you’ve made up to give yourself a reason to quit.
Buck up kid, you’re doing fine.

It was only a dream.
A dream that I wish wasn’t just a dream.
No wonder I slept so soundly.

Feeling like an evil human being next to them.

Is it weird I feel like doing something stupid to get out of this cycle for just abit?

I need to run free by myself, breathe in the air.

And realise the only person that I can truly be myself around and trust the most is me.

I need those wings or maybe that jetpack backpack which I dream ever so of possessing and lift off to infinity and beyond.

I just need to get away, just for awhile.

Carnal instincts seems to make the most sense right now. I wanna be completely swallowed by my own selfish desires. Just for now.